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I think I may have said before that the worst thing about mental illness is that you don't know it's going on while it's happening, because everything looks normal from the inside...but things keep going wrong, you keep getting sick, and your life slowly turns into one long journey through the Valley of Suck. So I'd like to thank several of my close friends for showing up this evening at what I thought was going to be a chili dinner but in fact was an intervention. Thanks, guys. I needed that. You're right that ten years of this nonsense is long enough.

There is now a plan of action for dealing with the situation, and this plan will be followed. I can trust you all to keep me honest on this. I am not sure that the suggested motivation is the best one, since I am a firm believer that living well is the best revenge (and intend to find out how that can be extrapolated into reprisal) and I have a seven-year head start anyway, but we'll work on that.


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Mar. 1st, 2010 02:12 pm (UTC)
Sounds hard & tough & good. I'm grateful to your friends, and to you for listening to 'em.

Take care, and let me know if you need anything.

(Now that I've written the above, have you read The Chemistry Of Joy? It's about food, and what effect they have on depression. It's not the be all and end all -as the author says- but could be one part of a health breakfast -er- dealing with depression.)
Mar. 1st, 2010 10:48 pm (UTC)
I need to get hold of that book. One of my problems is that for a long time, I've used food to push the joy button in my head, and that needs to stop.

Thank you for the offer. You did a lot to help me keep my head together during the Not-So-Recent Unpleasantness, which I will never forget. Someday I'll find a way to thank you properly.
Mar. 1st, 2010 08:03 pm (UTC)
I hope everything's okay - I mean, convention work is a sign that something's not right, but I didn't think it had gotten that bad.

Seriously, if things aren't right then do the work to get well - if you need anything from Minnesota, let us know. We'll do our best.
Mar. 1st, 2010 10:52 pm (UTC)
I started giggling when I realized you have never known me when I wasn't suffering from depression at one level or another Can you see the real me? but I managed to get hold of myself.

As with huladavid, you have been a better friend to me than I really deserved, and I have no idea how/when/if I can ever repay you.
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